My book sales are abysmal.

This week, I gave away another short story called The Last Portrait. I only shared the link on one specific social media profile to see if it would make any difference. It didn’t. As of today, I’ve had only two downloads — for a free book!

I started from zero, so I expected the numbers to be low in the beginning — and maybe for quite a while. Still, I decided to put my numbers out there.

And I’m doing it for two reasons:

1. It creates an authentic record of my progress.

Two downloads are terrible, sure — maybe even embarrassing to share. But ten years from now, this will be part of my story: how a beginner author with no audience tried to make something happen. Maybe I’ll fail completely. But if I do, at least this blog and my transparency will show what didn’t work.

2. It builds trust.

Most things online are fake. People claim all sorts of things on their profiles. How many “lifestyle influencers” out there are actually broke — just faking it until they make it? I’d guess a lot more than those who truly live the lives they portray. What they never show you is how they failed. No, they always succeed at everything. Sure…

With me, you get the real, authentic version — including the failures. That’s why, when I finally succeed at something, you’ll know you can trust me.

My YouTube tutorial channel now has over 11K subscribers. After my first year, I only had 59 subs. It’s still far from being life-changing, but it pays a few bills nowadays. I’m finally in a position where I can teach something about YouTube with real experience — and you can be sure I didn’t fake my way there.

The same will happen with my writing. Maybe in seven years, I’ll be able to say that my books help to pay the bills — maybe it’ll take even longer. But when that day comes, you can be sure I’m telling the truth, because I’ve been sharing my failures from day one — by sharing my numbers.